die!

im nervous
like seriously shit mann

oh God,help me! :(

im gonna die on the first night sleeping in a boarding school
or faint
or cry
or scream
or getting sick

ughh,i dont know!im speechless
i hate myself
i hate my life?
pleaseee evryone,do come see me there ok?
to chill me out
i've never been in a boarding school before!!!
i wish evryone will come to send me there on tuesday
i wish my sisters and brother are here :'(

lovee ya'll

;munirah,ng qi xuan,rachel,kong eve lyne,long winnie,vicky,joanne,nithiyah,faralissa,norina,naziha,sara,nyna,shaheeza,ugashini

hppy belated bday to me ;P

thx guys for coming

and also thx to all my friends and classmates for being such good friends through all these years

loveee yall!

so so srry for those i didnt manage to invite

because on first place,i just wanted to do a small and simple party

so if i wanted to throw a party next time,

then i'll invite all of youu.and the important thing is tht i plan it properly!ohh God

i hope it'll be better than yesterday

because i know,ya'll were bored yesterday

srry.it was a last minute plan.i forgot to do games

vry vry srry

hope to see all of you,soon!

and also my primary school's friends.love youu

xoxo,

ALIA

sweet sixteen and farewell party :)

my birthday is coming!

its already around the corner

so i was just thinking of throwing a party at my house on the 30th i think

my sweet sixteen & farewell party ;D

im so excited

i asked my mom,and she's like over-excited.haha

she wants to invite her bestfriend and all

but i said,old people will be inside.hehe

my sister siti is coming i think

and also my grandparents maybe :)

but my parents were like asking me, "na ade ramai kawan ke nk ajak?"

haha.i did an angry face and said,"ade la"

HAHA lol

im thinking of inviting my form 3 classmates

and when i listed all their names,its like 30 people

my parents said its too many

i will just invite all of them because maybe some of them are not gonna make it to my party

so i anggarkan it will be like 20 people?maybe?

but if all 30 are coming,i think it'll be fun :)

i think i'll not gonna talk so much if there will be so many people

but trust me guys,im hppy inside!

when im hppy,i barely show it

most of times if im hppy,i just smile widely or just showing 'nothing'

but deep down inside i am like "hell yeahhh,baby!woowww" HAHA ;DD

and also if im angry,sometimes i just keep quite,but deep down inside im like, "who the hell do u think you are??" ;P

im so afraid if the party is not gonna turn out to be something i expect it to be

im nervous

but im hoping the best for the party.wish me luck.haha ;)

past

i remembered someone
this was after i read hidayah razak's blog
haha :D

i feel so stupid and funny when i think about my times in the primary school
xbleh bla la time skola rendah dulu
hahaha

emotion sickness

empty.

i dont know wht i need

i dont know wht i am suppose to do

i dont know wht i am craving for

i dont know why i am being such pathetic person

i dont know why i've never been grateful with what i have

im empty

like really really empty

there's like a big hole inside my chest

sometimes i dont breathe for minutes

because i cant

because im being such a fool

trust me,this is the most painful condition i've ever been in
its not outside,

its inside me tht always feel the pain

im not being sensitive,but its true

im always confuse

i want it,but i dont feel like i need it

i love it,but i hate it sometimes

i want to kick your ass,but i am afraid to do so

i feel like crying,but im smiling with no reasons

i think too much

until most of the times i feel like pukee-ing
lately im being rude to everyone.but then,i feel bad.

i have problems,

not with people

but with myself

am i nuts?
do i have psychology problems?

i just DONT KNOW

2010 darlingg

hello 2010! :)

its new year.

im not getting any highhhhh hopes for this year

because i'll get frustrated

like last year.haha :P

so im just gonna go with the flow babyyy

hee

holiday

hye
hey
hello ! :)

haha.so lame
im kinda bored right now
so i do stupid things like tht.ghee

nway,this school holiday i went to kl like 3 times
haha.no where to go.since my parents are busy
so we just went there only
last week my family and i went kl.i bought lovely things in kl.loveee all the things i bought ;D
and u know wht,for the first time i went to pavillion which is located at bukit bintang
hahaa.evryone already went there except for me i think
i dont really like to shop there.as the stores there are like so freakinggggg expensive.all of them like branded stores.i like juicy couture,but evrything is like 600++ i think.annoying
i just like the roxy store.because it has 2 floors ;p where we cant find 2 floors of roxy store at any other place in m'sia
but didnt get to go to the 2nd floor.my family was rushing,like usual.haha
i didnt bought anything there.but my sister did.heee.and my brother was like 'siti ni,shopping je.cube jimat2 sikit' poyo jee ;DD
before going back to the hotel,we went to starbucks